Today's mix feelings huhu

Malam ni sue tido sorg2 sbb abg gi keje jauh. Biasalah kalo tau abg nk outstation mula la muka sposen kita pon kuar! Smpi abg ckp susah hati dia nk tggl sue if i act that way. Mmg ada niat suh abg jgn pegi pon tp hhmmm... Mula2 mmg mcm nk ngada2 jer at last mmg kuar jgk la air mata duyung suhada tu huhu :'( Tak boleh la plus if abg kene g weekend plak tu. Kalo weekdays at least rs kejap sbb sue pon keje plus ada "the Thaqifs" so i can keep myself busy! This week ain n Thaqifs malong takde lg la sunyi. But actually abg g mlm ni esok malam dia balik dah huhuhu... Bukan nk ngada2 la tp seriously dr tadi hati sue risau semacam. Fikir psl abg nnt smpi tak ckup rehat blaablabla...ntah hape2 lg yg sue risau pon tak taulah! Payah la nk suh hati ni jgn risau. Perlis tu jauh tau kl drive even abg pegi berdua ngn kwn dia {sigh}

Mak plak time abg takde ni dia nk Subuh kat surau plak dah!! Cane sue nk bgtau mak yg sue risau tinggal kat umah sorg2 ni?? Nanti mst mak gelak punya sbb mak tau sue mmg penakut. Bertambah risau la hati yg dah mmg risau ni. Fikir mcm2 takut kot2 ada org jahat dtg ms mak abah g surau ker apa ker! Kalo jerit bkn ada org nk dgr pagi2 buta. Macam2 plak la kpala otak ni melalut adooiii!!! Last2 cara terbaik is bgtau mak thru msg sbb mak pon kl nk kejut sue bgn pagi dia anto msg jer. Rela dia msg dr ketuk pintu bilik mcm jauh sebatu je kan. Padahal 5 langkah tak smpi huhu.... This was the msg i sent to mak just now hahaha... Baca sounds funny rite but the truth that i'm holding back tears was not a joke! 

Pastu mak ketuk pintu gelakkan sue tanya nape dia tak blh pegi surau. Mmg saja je nk buat org marah tau. Sonok laa gelakkn anak dia...tak tau plak ak becakap suara pon da lain macam je bunyi pastu tutup pintu air mata kuar lagi. Sebelum abg pegi nangis, mak ckp nk pegi surau esok pon nangis. Adooiiii la suhada dah kenapa dgn ko ni!?? Be positive la weyh but i can't. Abg kata esok pi jln2 dgn mak...hhmmm boleh la nk buang masa tak pk kat abg. Malam lps maghrib sue ada gathering dgn x-students TTC blh la buang masa lg. Allah dah plan biar sue jgn risau kat abg ptt syukur la kan. Yezza...Alhamdulillah n i wish tomorrow will rapidly ended. Selalu org tak suka Isnin including me but this is rarely happen which i can't wait to begin my Monday. Dah la hati jgn nak ngada2.

"Dengan nama ALLAH yg maha Pengasih lagi maha Penyayang" tidurlah wahai hati lelaplah wahai mata. Semoga Allah melindungiku dan org2 yg ak sayangi Aminn Ya Rabb.....InshaaAllah everything will be fine just remember Allah n zikir if u still in anxious mood.

Mana pon abg pegi, doa syg semoga abg selalu dlm lindungan Allah