"Love is a Verb"

Sue mungkin takan faham semuanya tapi apa yg sgt pasti CINTA selalu perlukan pengorbanan...dari sekecil2 pengorbanan hinggalah yg paling besar yg pasti akan menyakitkan hati. Pengorbanan tu akan rasa berbaloi kalau dapat melihat org yg kita sayang akhirnya tersenyum. Read this...

Most of us think of love as a feeling; an emotion that washes over us when we meet that right person. At first we’re swept up with everything they do and can’t wait to see them again. All emotions are cranked up to the max and the intense brightness lights up everything. We’re happy. We’re in love.

As time slowly passes the feeling starts to fade — it’s still very bright but the madness of it all has tapered and leveled out. You aren’t always consumed by what your love is doing or thinking. You’re off that initial high.

As more time passes real world problems begin to surface. What drew you to that person is now beginning to get on your nerves: financial problems, disagreements, or annoying habits. The rose colored glasses are off and what you see before you is a real person, the fantasy you initially fell in love with is fading away and replaced with a real person.

Love is a verb. It’s an action requiring your involvement your active participation. You cannot sit back and expect the world will serve it to you. You cannot expect that your relationship will continue to provide love while you’re not putting in any effort. Love has to be earned and must be continually fought for (i think she's doing the right thing for her own sake, i have no right to hate ppl)  Hatred isn't me =[


Think about what you’ve done lately to earn love. What actions have you taken?

Are YOU willing to…

1. Sacrifice - When we enter a relationship we can be overwhelmed by the sheer amount of change that takes place. We change who we are as people. Our lifestyle, our habits, our hobbies all change. But giving up a part of ourselves is a sacrifice that we need to be willing to make in order to receive something greater in return. A relationship – a marriage, is a joint venture that requires continual work, improvement, and commitment. If you find yourself asking “Well what have you done for me lately?” be careful. This is certainly not in the spirit of making a relationship work, acting as if you’re on the same team or cultivating love in the relationship. If fact, asking this type of selfish question is usually a deal breaker in the end.

2. Listen - I find that most men have a rather strong urge to solve the problem when talking about any issue. I don’t mean to make this a broad sweeping statement it’s just an observation of the men I’ve talked to in my life. Similarly, women can be so chatty, on guard or defensive at times, that the men can’t get a word in edgewise and when they do we jump all over them without hearing them out. A sure fire way to let someone know that you care about them is to simply listen. Listen without judgement, criticism or handy hints to solving the problem. Sometimes we all just need a quiet supportive ear.

3. Empathize - Empathy is the ability to share and understand someone else’s emotions as if they were our own. This can have a profound effect on the type of relationship you have with another human being – it creates a very deep and meaningful bond. Everyone is capable of empathy but not everyone has mastered it. Imagine what it’s like being your partner. What do they go through? Just for a moment try becoming the other person and truly seeing the world through their eyes. You’ll likely get a greater appreciation for who they are, what they do, and what they’ve overcome.

4. Appreciate - Appreciation is an expression of gratitude. When you appreciate a loved one you are saying that they are a special and significant part of your life. Take a minute and think of the ways you have shown appreciation of someone you love – a spouse, a family member or a close friend. You don’t need to buy expensive gifts or go on extravagant holidays to show appreciation. Next time you want to show appreciation for a loved one try simply saying thank you, spend some alone time together, and listen to each other keeping it positive and upbeat. Appreciation asks for nothing in return but it gives everything.

5. Affirm - When you pay attention and focus on the ones you love most you can tune into what makes them tick. By paying attention you can incorporate loving actions and words into every day that affirm what they mean to you. Affirmations include physical contact like hugging and holding hands or running your fingers through their hair. It also includes giving time, attention, gifts, or kind words. Your affirmation of the one you love should not be conditional to reciprocity (i.e. don’t wait and simply do it in return) . Relinquish the fear of looking soft and go out on a limb and affirm your partner FIRST. Show him that you care about the real, authentic, and imperfect him. That you’re there for him always even as others come and go.

Love isn’t just a feeling that washes over you and lasts a lifetime. It is a gift that requires attention, work and dedication. What you put into that love is what you will receive back. Why not change how you think of love today? Make the change — love is more than just a word — love is a verb.

Tired

Sue dah janji apa pun takmo nangis kan?? Big girl dont cry, powerpuff girl dont cry also. Dari kecik kalo rs tak sihat mesti mak akan buat 'air tawar' sendiri. Kalo arwah atok ada dulu ada jugak dia buat tuk cucu2 dia. Smlm masa sampai rumah mak taklah sakit perut tp lepas makan ttibe sakit. Sue mintak mak buat 'air jampi' hehehe...actually bkn jampi apa pun tp saje2 sbb kdg2 maybe perasaan yg kawal otak kita. Then bila yg buat sumthing tu adalah mak....sakit pon akan rasa kurang secara automatik. It's all in your mind sbenarnya.

Sampai rumah sue smlm cam biasa akan msg mak bgtau dah sampai and ada lah merepek few things. Satu msg mak cakap "if pening mabok tu pembawakan budak" Adooiiii...sedeynye bace msg tuh but sue reply jgk cakap cane nk ada budak if darah dah keluar then trus takde reply. Benda2 camnilah yg akan buat sue sedey slalunyer, bila pikirkan org2 yg sue sayang.

Otw balik banting dlm keta smlm sue pikir psl kedegilan sue yg dah takmo mkn ubat sbb kononnya penat dan bosan. Yeesss...sue BENCI dgr perkataan ubat sbb itu akan buat sue rs sue tak sesihat org lain!!! "You're too selfish suhada if you still stick with this decision" Skrg yg bermasalahnye saya so saya kena dgr cakap org lain...tuk bahagiakan org lain dan diri sendiri juga. No use if sue sorang degil dan happy tp ramai hati lain yg tak happy sbb sue. Sue dah bgtau dgn abg yg sue mmg sedey dgn apa yg jadi skrang, sue tanak mkn ubat lagi, sue mintak abg je yg buat decison lepas ni. Abg cakap kalo jmp doctor kena mkn ubat, tak boley tak makan nnt cemana nak sihat. Okie fine lah...sue akan makan ubat tp tak semestinya sue akan sihat jugak. Sue kena yakin dgn Allah bukan ubat2 tuh. Abg cakap dia akan always ada dgn sue so sue kena kuat. Dalam hati saya skrg sangat kesihankan abg and hopefully abg blh sabar juga dgn sume nih =(

Suhada is so very tired right now.......

24/05/2011

Today on je laptop login ym trus dpt msg chan

Chan Seet Mui: susu
Chan Seet Mui: thanks for sending the email

sue yemoc: small matter

Chan Seet Mui: i appreciate it u know

sue yemoc: hihi..tq too
sue yemoc: at least all know bout the prob at KLR rite

Chan Seet Mui: ya
Chan Seet Mui: i know ady

So okie la if sume pon profesional...work is work and out of office time frens should never end also. No use heart feeling lame2 coz this Thursday have an OJT at JRC, next month got another migration. Everybody needs to work as a team till next 8 years! hihihii... Enuf bout that crazy girl okie =)


-Suhada time-
Sue mmg dah agak harini akan datang tp cam tak terpikir pon pagi ni. Alhamdulillah...sedey ttap ade sket tapi cam biasa, kalo ini yg baik terima jer dgn hati yg sgt terbuka. Where hope grows, miracles blossom...keep ur dreams alive suhada

I'ts all bout INGN =)

Kihkihkihh..gelak sket dulu...this morning received called from Seet Mui, lately kl dgn sue she always akan call me 'susu' but today different lor. At first tanyer then marah2 tp i still can laugh coz rs lucu plak. It's not my mistake and i dont have feel afraid of anybody. Apa yg buat sue rs lucu?? Bila chan marah2 dlm hati sue ckp "padan muke...than only u know this girl also importnt rite!!" Oooo...ms duk balas2 email complete migration tanak keep all in the loop alasan mmg dia bg boss je and ur boss should responsible. So why today dont call my boss or req her to send u that report??? Why haa??!! Wahahaha....sue takdelah jwp camtu sbb rs lucu tak abih lg td. Tesenyum je smbil mmbalas hujah dia yg takmo kalah.

I've been working for 4 years plus...my boss never req/ask/treat me that way but this crazy girl today make me this way. All this while i work with very kind pple/bosses kot so sue rs ini girl sgt pelik. No heart feeling coz i knew bit bout this girl mmg crazy in so many ways but hati dia baik. Let her do wuteve she want coz we're in the same line. If dont want to find me now...sooner or later when you've sumthing to ask for/need to know then you'll come to me. I also dont care wut pple might think coz my boss know my job and this is just misscommunication sumore. Still cannot berenti senyumlah sbb ini sgt lucu for me..takde bnd nk takut pon  =P

-Berat sungguh-

Sesungguhnya apa yg ada dalam hati ni Allah saje yg tawu....nak jerit kuat88x sangat smpai hilang sume beban yg ade skrg. Baru smlm sue rasa sue sangat kuat tp kenapa kalah jugak kali nie. Sue sakitkan hati org lagi...dan lagi tp sbenarnya takde niat camtu pown. Sume org takan faham....sume org takan tawu!!!!!!

Sue tak merungut ya Allah tp tolonglah ringankan apa yg sue rasa skrg, dah tak tawu sgt nk buat apa skrg. Terasa nak lari drpd dunia yg sempit dan menyesakkan dada nie tp lari bkn cara nk selesaikan masalah kn. Sue salah so kalau perlu dimarah..marah la tp tolong jgn benci sue. Jangan benci suhada please.......... Dah lama rsnyer air mata ni kering.....betul ke sue dah "takde hati" skrg?!?? mmg sue tak jadi diri sendiri lately tp tuk sesetengah perkara suhada is still suhada. Lama sgt kot nk menahan beban kat bahu dan hati...at last harini air mata yg Allah jadikan tuk setiap wanita terpaksa sue gunakan jgk. Org kate kalo kite tgk org lain nangis jgn tahan/jgn suh dia benti nangis, biar dia lepaskan sepuas2nya....lepas tu wlpun masalah tak selesai tp "beban" di hati at least kurang. Satu lg kl suh benti nangis pon nnt bukan makin slow silap2 makin teruk nangisnyer so biarkn. Just go with the flow...memag betul pown

"Aku tak mengerti apa yg terjadi, apa salah dan kurang aku pada-Mu"

Benda da nak jadi...nak kate ape???

Masa ain duk sibuk2 tanyer psl nak ke tidak amik barang2 yg kononnya dr kastam tu, banyak kali gak sue tanya nk verify btul ke that guy can be trusted!! Tapi sbb dia kenal budak tu so ain marah bl ditanya soklan same byk2 kali. Ooooohh my........baru sat2 ni dpt ckp ngn mak rupenyer budak tu is not a guy okie, it's a girl actually 2 girls!! Ya Allah....sure dia tak buat bnd2 ni sendiri punyer. Ain bgtau td mmg dia kenal that girl junior dia ms kat UiTM melaka tp skrg dah jd setan kot dak tuh. hihihhiiii...

Mula2 dgr shahrin kata ain dah deposit duit kat dak tuh...uuuiiiiiiiii sakit hati ni tak tekata kot!! Speechless gilos okie sbb sue tak tau langsung psl bank in duit wut so eve..langsung!! After taking very long deep breath dlm kereta td (xsmpat nk masuk rumah sbb sue mmg nk settle sume dlm keta jer snang takyah bising2) sue call mak mntak bwk betenang byk2. I knew my mak very well and for sure when she knows ain already bank in certain amount to dat 'bitch' (sorry but this is the only suitable word at this time...haha) mak akan "potpet88x". Words mula2 yg keluar dr mulut sue is "mak dgr je apa kak long nk ckp baik2 n tlg jgn bising2 sbb bnd dah jd" Then lepas cakap one by one td mak start to calm down even still marah sket2. After dat call shahrin tenangkn dia and talk few things, sue tau dia sedey but i also knew my bro n he wont say sumthing dat can make situation even worse so dia cuma mntak tlg cari dak tu smpai dapat. Wut i sure kl dia ada kat semenanjung skrg mmg tak tido dia cari budak tu mlm ni... Then tak abih kat situ sblm call shahrin sue call fuad jgk sbb dia je mmber polis yg blh bg pndapat dgn seyes when needed, yg lain byk main kot. Puas dgr prosess n prosedure tuk kes2 mcm ni n ad ckp mmg byk je kes2 berkaitan kastam nih, sue make few calls sblm blh keluar dr kereta. Aiiyyyyooo...sure org ingat bercinta kn dlm keta lame2.

One thing yg sue sgt beryukur mlm ni is bila sue pikir balik....sue try tuk tenangkn sume org. Tak tau mane dtg strength tu tp sue just tanak mak bebel2 kat ain sbb nnt dia akan makin tension. She need space tuk pikir and settle down slowly. Adatlah bila mak bebel (sue risau kl mak tak bebel...means mak tak sihat la kl mulutnye diam.hehhe) n ain or sape2 je takan suke kena pressure dlm situasi camtuh. Dlm kereta mcm2 otak ni pikir smpai tak cukup processor dah...mintak smoga Allah mudahkan semuanya, takde sape salah coz it's our own fault, bnd dah jd tak guna bising2, duit tu takan dpt balik of coz, nak dak tu masuk jail sgt2, kalau ada rezeki kami adalah nnt and if tak dpt blk duit tu anggap jela bukan rezeki kami. Maybe ada tanggungjwp/hutang2 yg sue lupa nk langsaikan sblm2 nih gaknyer. At least at this time masih ada baki duit2 dr total amount yg org bg tuh, at least masa ni ain masih selamat dan takde pape. When bad things happen to me 1st sue always think "sume bnd yg Allah jadikan bersebab" and setiap kali tulah Alhamdulillah sue akan dpt hikmahnya (but not all of coz ada yg still in question) Pahal sue positif sgt kot kan tp maybe sbb keadaan mendesak, sbb tanak sume org risau specially my bro yg dah lost 2k+ and my mak yg sgt suke berfikir dgn cara dia asalkn dia lega (takbley la mak cara mak tu sbb negara kt ada undang2..ehhehehe), duit sue pon of coz sue syg but alhamdulillah amountnye tak byk cam shahrin, duit of coz sayang la weyh and skrg bila 'senget' jap kepala ni mula la pikir "kalo duit byk tu leh beli sunglasses baru kot" but when 'senget' time dtg skrg bila otak dah 'normalize' sue pikir tu bukan rezeki jelah. Duit boley cari one taw, ade lah rezeki kat tmpat lain tu nnt.

Sue prasan lately sue blh blaja terima kesedihan yg dtg sbb terlalu byk bnd jd dlm hidup sue skrg. Setiap kali tu jgk sue akan ingat La-Tahzan...jgn bersedih dan bnd tu sgt ajaib. Simple word but very meaningful dan tiap2 kali tu jgk sue thanks to Allah sbb bg sue kenal Ikhwan. He's the one yg mula2 bg sue tau sume ni. Cam sue ckp kat entry yg lepas2 byk bnd sue petik dr ceramah Dr Asri...tersgt bermakna buat suhada, mmg sue xckp directly tp petikan2 dia share dr ayat2 Al-Quran/Hadith tu ya Allah sgt hebat. Kedua almost everytime ada masalah sue akan tringat "Managing Stress Course" yg TM buat last year, satu hari tp impaknya still ada so bgs la kn... Bermula dgn kesedihan sbb cahaya mata, kerja, jadual shift tak tentu arah, family dan mcm2 yg dtg satu2 sue hadap jugak...not alone coz it's always akan ada org yg dekat dgn kita bila diperlukan, ada Allah. Mmg pengalaman hidup akan mematangkan kita tu yg pasti.

Sue admit bukan semua dugaan yg dtg sue terima terus dgn hati terbuka but slowly bila ingat La-Tahzan dan ada moral support from ppl around itu sgt mmbantu sbenarnya. Mcm apa yg jd mlm ni....sue harap dapat bg pengajaran pd sue dan semua. Jadi tak perlu menyesal kot. Kdg2 sy pandai ckp jer tp sy still blajar tuk jd apa yg sepatutnya. Masih banyak kekurangan tp itu mmg hakikat manusia. Kali ni kita cuma hilang duit, akan dtg mungkin Allah akan uji lebih lg so tak perlu terlalu tertekan sbenarnya....yelah ckp tak semudah nk buat yek. May Allah bless and guide us in life. End for tonite, tired but still have to smile coz when i smile i hope others will smile as well...

"Cukuplah bagiku Ya ALLAH, sesungguhnya KAU lah sebaik-baik tempat diserahkan segala urusan"

Kerja lagiiiiii dan lagiiiiii

Migration again...yea..yeeaa!! Sue suke sbb bila migration sure bz, bila bz tak banyak pikir masalah nnt. Dari pagi sue duk layan email, traffic all related to migration. Sikit pon tak rs nk merungut tp of coz la penat sket sbb abg rasid takde gi training, waisan lak gi audit SFC so yg tggl sue jer. Nasib gak fizi ade leh tlg monitor CDR and ajar tgk traffic..hihihiiii. Ada lak org kata sy garang bila kerje byk...ahhhahaha..tu bkn garang la der, bila kt perlukn sumthing as an urgent we've to push and when that happen suhada will be bit strict lor! Plus when i ask one thing u give other thing piching would be "lari" kan,hahahah...deep inside im not angry one. It's a matter of work no heart feeling oldo sumtimes i yg feeling hurt. That's suhada of coz....alwayz sensetif one [harini abih style cine sue pakai sbb dr pagi duk ym ngn chan n petang dgn waisan , all bout migration la nih] ahhahaha

Lately kn sue slalu balik lewat smpai dah bosan jgk bila org NGN asik kaco kate sue keje gitu la gini la...rajin sgt la, tension sgt la, OT lebey la. Aiiyyaaaaa...fyi kan i never claim OT taw even i can do it. Sue mmg ade je pk nk claim but cam no need jer coz sumtimes sue dtg lewat then balik or kuar mane2.....so dats fair la for me. Mmg kl ikut OT leh dpt gak sket kot...kakakahh =) most important for me at this time is "happiness" cannot buy one taw!! =(

Mlm ni McD burger lagi but DCB plak...tu yg paling mudah dan selamat. Today opis time, rumah time layan lagu alleycats lg tak bosan pown...akan keep on listening till sy rs cam tanak dgr dah. Wanna layan my sudoku before sleep n 2morrow moning go to JRC, by noon at cyber plak....enjoy my life now.... -End-

Suara Kekasih
Hadiran ombak membelai pantai
Tiada putusnya percintaan itu
Hembusnya bayangmu menyejukkan
Tapi tiada terhenti dahaga
Kerinduan suara kekasih
Membelai hatiku
Suara kekasih
Membasuh lukaku

Tibanya sinar bulan di laut
Dengan ribuna alunan kemesraan
Membawa kenangan yang berlalu
Dengan ribuan warna keemasan
Suara kekasih
Membelai jiwaku
Suara kekasih
Yang menyejukkan ku

Terdengar suaramu yang suci
Pabila terkejut dari mimpi
Ku manyakinkan suara itu
Memanggil daku dengan harapan
Tapi sayangnya alunan ombak
Yang memecah diri sangkaku
Suara kekasih
Yang memanggil daku
Suara kekasih
Di malam yang indah

Suara Kekasih

Malam ni sgt best layan lagu alleycats -Suara kekasih tp new record with zamani (loike his sweet voice), ezad lazim, saleem (no replacemnt kot) and of coz otai asal dia mr. david (great voice!)

Sy sgt sunyi dan bosan tp hati saya tenang...smlm takley tido wlpun mkn sparuh ubat tido sbb kepala keep on asking/thinking ntah hape2. Tonite sue harap sgt kepala ni kosong la hendaknye. Dah denyut2 nih tp still ok la kl ley tido jap lg plus tomorrow is Digi's migration. Adat la time2 nk migrate je tools problem la, xcukup manpower la apa laaaaa... Layankan ajer mane yg boley. Wat masa ni priority sue is kerja and always kerja sbb itu jer yg blh buat sue at least happy dan tak pikir mslh sue. Allah bg seswatu tu bersebab dan sue dah mula rs/nampak sbb2nyer. Sue masuk shift balik sbb Allah tanak sue sibuk pikir mslh yg ntah bila akan habis. Sue kena kerja 6 hari seminggu tp sue da tak merungut. Skrg mak yg emo lebey sbb cemana besar pon seorg anak, dimata sorg ibu anak dia tetap kecil kn. Kerisauan mak mmg ada logiknyer tp inilah yg terbaek tuk sue buat masa nie mak.

Sue tak dikurniakan zuriat lagi smpai skrg sbb Allah tawu kot sue tak mampu even nk jg diri sendiri. Sue tak layak lg nk jg anak kalau hidup sndiri tak taratur. Allah dah aturkan hidup sue dgn jalan yg lain dr biasa. Skrg sue takan merungut wlpun sedey ttap ada jugak kdg2 sbb Nil Airisy ada. Sue cuma kena tggu airisy besar sket tuk dia mula panggil sue 'umi'. Biarlah kalo abg rs airisy bukan anak dia tp pd sue airisy anak sulong sue. Dah la ngarut....esok kena gi awal balik sah lewat (but i enjoy that way). Nite world...smoga kamu slamat dan sentiasa di bawah lindungan-Nya. Saya tak rela kamu disakitkn walaupun sikit!!

-Suara Kekasih...sayang suhada-  =)

Keje gilos =(

Suhada mmg gilos....gile2 tak brape remaja, hahaha...ngntok sgt2 ms nak balik dr opis td (dlm kul 19:00pm gitu). Kalo bg bantal mmg lelap gak kejap tp kena balik...at the same time hati tamo balik umah. Mane sy nk pegi nie??!! Call shahrin dia kata jap lg nak sampai umah dah (umah mak) so ok lah dgn kepala yg kosong, mata yg agak berat drive gi KL nih. Sempat singgah anta baju yg dah sbulan duk dlm keta tu kat dobi biasa sue tuh. Call lg then shahrin kata dia kat area Chowkit gi mane ntah....dia passing phone kat mak plak daaaa!! Mak always akan tanya dgn sape sue dtg sane..perlu ke nk tanyer everytime?? (mode: marah gak la sbb soklan tu agak mmbosankan). Bila sue ckp dtg sorg mmg takde ayat lain kuar dr mulut mak "haaaaa..korang gadoh eh!!??" Aaaaaarrrrgggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh8888888x!!!! Sangat8 tension time tuh sampai sue tertinggi sket nada suara kat mak. Sue minta maaf sgt2 taw mak wlpun mak xbaca blog nie...Saya bebetul tertekan dan perlukan teman masa tuh, ingt jmp adik jmp mak blh buat sy happy tp mak dah "spoil" everything. Tak sempat mak abih ckp sue trus letak tepon and on the spot gak sue msg kat shahrin ckp tak jd dtg n will see him 2morrow before fly to Sabah.

Mak da buat sue nangis taw!! Sedey sgt sbb org dtg nk tgk family sndiri tp cam ssh sgt! Smpai telepas ckp td "nk jmp adek sndiri pon ssh ker" ooh my gucci...suhada sgt berdosa dgn mak tp sue bbtul tensen td, tak tiippuuu!!! =(  uuwwaaaa

Ajak anne kuar katanya nk mandi dulu bebagai so cancel lah. Lama temenung dlm keta depan kedai dobi mana sue nk gi. At last tekan je minyak arah je mane2 pon. Dari Cyber gi KL semata2 nk gi kedai dobi (niat asal lain tp adoooiiii la mak) pastu balik Banting. Syoknyer kali ni sue balik ikut Bangsar pastu still tak tau nk arah kemana. Otak sgt blur and all the way tuh sedey, nangis pastu sedey balik. Terlalu banyak otak ni bekerja pikir apa yg jd dlm hidup ni. Kenapa Allah tentukan sue hidup mcm ni??? Bukan nk salahkn takdir tp tulah soklannyer. Sampai ke tol Shah Alam sue still bluurr lg....trus ke Klang then hati rs tak 'besh' sbb ttbe nmpk sign board IPOH!! Alamak...hati mmg otai tp mslhnyer masuk td guna TnG so kl baki tak cukup kang smpai Ipoh cane lak?? Amik arah ke KLIA lah...rs cam pernah lalu jln tuh..ntah mane2nyer arah tp tak takut sbb keta manyak dan tak gelap. Suke tgk lampu2 jln. Tu mmg hobi sue dr kecik, mak abah pon tawu kl naek keta mlm2 mak akan kejutkn sue bila sampai tmpat yg lampu jln manyak/terang. Tgk lampu hati yg "gelap" jd terang sket. Pelik tp suhada suke nk wat cane... Bila dah sampai MIFOS then sue tau sue tak sesat dah. Slow, steady and sedey sy drive sorang2 tu pon rs cam tanak balik. Adooooiiii...parah suda!!

Dlm keta td sue pk apa salah sue??? Apa yg tak kena dgn sue smpai sue rs diri ni takde harga langsung!! LANGSUNG!! Rasa cam hina gile...banyak sgt ke dosa sue smpai Allah bg sume ni? [banyak la kot dosa tue] Apa yg sue tak buat tuk dia??? Nape sue dapat apa yg sue dapat skrg??? Sue ada mintak ker??
Ntah laaaa.....banyak sgt soklan tp takde jwpan tp Alhamdulillah smpai jgk rumah dgn selamat tp yg kat roundboard KLIA td tu mmg agak giler. heheheh..maaf la pacik Limo =p

Mcm takley tido so telan ubat lg mlm ni....nite sue, sweet deram, sleep tite (mmg tite la kl dpt ubat tido) ahhaha...


-Kalo takde org syg kamu at least u have to sayang urself suhada. dont wait till sumone does-

Wurkin on public holiday ;)

Today is wesak day and it's public holiday tapi sy pilih tuk berkerja. Haaa...rajin tak?? rajin tak??? Smlm telan ubat tido...bg masa stengah jam jer pastu mmg 'hilang', tak sedar ape pon sampai celik je mata jam da kul 11:15 pagi. Malasnya nak duduk rumah weyh!! Nak gi jenjalan sape je ade, mak abah shahrin sume gi Seremban dan sy sgt malas tuk ikut. Msg abg rasid then dia kata takper masuk je lewat pon sbb dia nk lepak JRC harini. Wahahahahh...best gile kot, siap2 pastu call emi katanya dia pon keje {wink2} then gerak gi opis laaa. Even public holiday kat sini org ttap ade jer plus today ada emi, zura, chia, dayat, rafi, monir and abg azlin. It's much3 better than duduk rumah. Dekat2 kul 13:00pm baru sampai opis. Otai gilos kan!! Duduk plak kat blakang so bila org tanyer cakap la mmg dah lame kot kat sini (ahhahah..dorg da phm sy sgt blh suka2 hati mau dtg dan pergi)

Lunch time u allz.....and im goin out with all kjsb staffs so sue nk jd org KJ gaklah. Hahaha....dlm pd meriah tu trasa jgk ada yg kurang tp ape ehh?? hehehe...Ada org req nak naek myvi tp ramai sgt nk join so emi lg jd mangsa [this guy is damn funny taw but he's soo very nice person too] Sue, Emi, Zura, Chia and Abg Azlin had our lunch at Ayam Kampung. Ingat public holiday kedai totop tp banyak je kedai bukak cam biasa. Sue tak pnah sembang dgn abg azlin tp harini berjaya ckp ngn beliau [hahaha mode bangge jap] nmpk cam garang tp ok jer sbenarnya. Tgh makan ni tiba tiba...........tibe tibe..............tetibe

Emi: Haritu kita gi mkn ngn abg azlin ngn (sape2 ntah nama dia sebut)......wan takde, pastu harini kita kuar reramai pon wan takde jgk! Kesian kat wan kan

Sue: Aiiyyooo..takyah la cakap camtu kot. Kamu ni...tawu aa rindu kat wan kan tp jgn aa ckp camtu...sedey gile kot! (at the same time ntah cemana peha ayam dlm pinggan sy "hidup balik". Terabur la nasi sket kat seluar [mode: malu ngn abg azlin sbb dia yg hulur tisu kot rsnyer td. hihihi]

Sume org tgh sembang topic lain2 then ttbe emi masuk citer en Ikhwan. Of coz sue sedey jgk sbb slalunya if sue makan dgn emi kat situ jgk akan ada wan besides dorg kn kembar =(  Mereka akan buat sue ketawa smpai sakit2 rahang. Nape la kamu dikeluarkan awal sgt ye en Ikhwan tak sempat knowing u well pon lg hahahah... Pastu kl wan tesedak kat umah sue tak sure la sbb kitorg duk mengimbaw kenangan dorg "tido lena" dlm kereta smpai kul 05:00pg. Abg azlin tekejut sbb sue tawu citer tuh. hahahahh.... lekluu abg azlin suhada kot [weekk!!] Abg azlin ckp wan tak heran da nk mkn ngn kita sbb dia kat Klang lg dah try mcm2 gaknye (senyum dlm hati) but if cukup 'korem' sue takley imagine cane nk gelak plak td. Emi tak abih2 dgn lawak dia menyakat abg azlin. Habis ayat dah org tu nk mnjawab blk..adooiiii. Best la coz at least sedey sy hilang sbentar tapi hanya tuk seketika [tarik nafas panjang jap]

Hakikatnya saya masih saaaaaaaaaangat "lost" tp masih harus tersenyum :)

Editing: Baru sat2 ni emi dok sebut lg pasai wan!! Kalo chia takde ley panggil wan ckp cina, dia kn pandai. Wahhahaha...gelak sakan na! Sue ckp..nmpk sgt emi rindu kat wan nie (dia ngaku gak okie), gi la jmp dia takpon roger dtg sini emi. aiisshhh...tarik nafas dalam2

-Sunyi dalam gembira-

Selamat Bertunang Iza -15/05/2011-

Citer psl ubat tido smlm...peerrghhh mmg tak sedar alam dah!!! Mmg tingtong kot smpai jam bunyi pon rs cam takmo bgn, kepala pusing tp smangat kuat bila pikir kat iza "it's her big day so i've to be strong, she's my bff wut!" Jln pon hoyong hayang gi jgk gosok baju. Mlm ni tgh pk nk telan 2-3 biji pil tido biar tido 2 hari trus, kang tak pasal2 kena kapan padan muka.. Joking jer kot plus tak rasa nk tido pon so malas nk makan.

Today is iza's engagement tp biasalah hidup ada bnd best ada bnd tak best so start with 'unhappy' thing dulu la kot. Kalo dah namanya kenduri mst banyak kepala dan bl banyak kepala sure akan ade mslh rite?? Pihak lelaki yg janji nk dtg kul 11pagi still tak smpai2 even da kul 12 lebih. Phm2 jelah tengahari, panas, lapar kena lak menuggu lama mmg hangin la pihak perempuan nie. Every 10 minit sorg2 masuk bilik tanya iza mana pihak lelaki. Mula2 sabar mokcik tu tp kl dah asik kena tembak dgn soklan same je mana larat, sue yg dgr pon panas telinga nih. Kalo sue jd dia awal2 dah hangin dah tp as a friend "jgn simbah minyak kat api yg tgh marak der" hehehe..puas sume org tenangkn dia tp at last meleleh gak air mata wanita tu. Sue sgt paham kl iza nangis bkn sbb apa sbb kami sama2 perempuan. Tgh tension mmg lah sume pon kurang waras sket kn. Kalo ditanye 1k kali pon takan bley smpai gak that time so apa yg sume ley buat is sabar! Lelaki pon satu hal..awak yg set time awak tak tepati tu nape ek..macam2 hal

Sue plak sedey dan frust sket harini sbb abg. Kdg2 sgt pelik taw...of coz im not a gud wife sgt pon but jd sedey bl pikir why everytime, evrything bout his friends sue blh layan, blh get along but when it comes to my friends jd susah sgt!??? Sue tak mintak lebey pon sbb kwn2 sue kwn dia jgk. Aiissshh~ [tarik nafas panjang jap] Bila kata takyah ikut katanya risau then bila ikut camnilh. Kdg2 sue prefer gi mane2 sndiri taw abg! Time mkn sue ajak mkn banyak kali takmo jugak masuk join kitorang. Alasan dah mkn...yeezz mmg da mkn tp ada pikir tak sue ni asik kena jwp soklan same jer everytime org tanyer "suami mana, tak ikut?" Sue blh consider abg akan sedey kl org tanye abg camtu tp ada pikir psl sy tak??? Padahal kamu kat luar rumah dlm keta je pon ms tuh. Cukup sue tak paham la lelaki ni taw. Terasa diri ni bujang jer plak haaa... Kenapa kamu tak boley join sy dgn kwn2 sy??? Kenapa sy boley jg hati kamu dan kwn2 kamu???? Adoooiiii...lepas pd tu sue masuk kereta tak bckp sepatah pon smpailah jmp dira, tipah n my daughter airisy. Otw blk umah pon sue wat2 tido sbb sgt malas. Sue nmpk abg cam tak sht kot asik selsema je tp sue tak mintak abg ikut kl cmni jdnyer. Yeezz...sy mmg klakar kan tp sy sedey laaaaaa!!!!

Okie2...enuf of sadness and it's time for happy2 thing. Sue happy sbb iza dah nak bertunang tadi tp skrg dah jd tunang org pon, happy sbb dpt jmp kwn2 specially zana yg mmg dah lama gile tak jmp, jmp airisy lepas abih kenduri td kat JJ. Airisy tau tak syg....airisy je yg blh buat sume kesedihan umi hilang harini walaupun sekejap. Kalo umi dtg sendiri mmg smpai malam kita duduk sama but bila ada en hilmy airisy phm la kn, payah sket ikut jadual org nih. hihihii...actually umo airisy baru 3bulan lebey la tp sue ckp cam dia paham je kn. Umi saaaaaayang sgt airisy and Thanks to Allah sbb bg umi jmp airisy. Eehh..citer psl tunang tak abih lg. Actually smlm abih je keje petang sue trus gi umah mak jap pastu gi umah iza. Sue tak tlg pape pon tuk iza so tuk kurangkn rs bersalah sue janji apa pon jd sue ttap akan dtg smlm. Sampai sane smpat la tlg wat hantaran tuk buah dan cekelat then br rs hilang bersalah dan puas hati. Makeup iza cantik and natural jer, makan pon best wlpun perut dah nyanyi lagu kristal n wings. hihihiii... Hantaran cantik, sume org happy so ok la kan. Sblm balik smpt sembang ngn kak zura pastu kena tegur "nape pucat je ni sue??" aiiyyooo apa nk jwp sbb mmg btul pon, tgk jela muka sue tade seri langsung dr smlm smpai pagi ni mata cam sembap, mmg dull sgt. Kak zura titipkn few advises antaranya jgn pk apa org nk ckp (just say InsyaAllah dan Alhamdulillah), enjoy ur time 2gather wif hubby, dont stress/think too much, dont work too hard, control pemakanan (elakkan cold things), consider everything dlm idup. Katanya masih byk yg sue blh dan blum buat, besides im still young. InsyaAllah sue akan ingat pesan kak zura dan wlpun sgt3 jarang jmp akk tp akk sgt baek n sweet. Again...Thanks to Allah sbb slalu kurniakan org2 yg baik and care/concern bout me. Ada BFF, kwn2 lelaki n perempuan, ada ikhwan, ada kak zura, ada sume2lah. Last session of coz amik2 gambar... mmg peberet kitorng la tue =)
Iza....wish u all da very best in life dear dan smoga cepat2 ke alam perkahwinan plak...

Dr kiri: Anoi, Anne, Fisya, Sue, Zana, Leha n Iza of coz

 Sume bujang yek!! ;)

 mek anne a.k.a antu pict.. ahhahaha

 Dari kiri lagi: Anne, Sue, Sya, Leha, anak2 kak zura n Iza

 We allz lepas kekenyangan yaw

Congrats beb  =)

 

Ok Airisy time!! Sue req kat dira nnt bila airisy dah besar sket dia kena panggil sue umi. Duduk dgn airisy rs cam hilang sume mslh, rs senang hati bila dia dlm dakapan ku. Ceeywaahh..tulah jdnyer bila hidup menumpang kasih org, jadilah drpd takde langsung kn dan nasib baek menumpang kasih pd yg sudi kalo tak sudi!! Dpt susukn airisy (susu botol okey..ahhahaha) tgk dia tido jap dah alhamdulillah la tue. Time nk balik ni yg berat nih...everytime nk 'berpisah' tak kiralah dlm keadaan apa pon sure berat hati. Banyak kali cium airisy pon umi rs tak puas jugak syg. You are my miracle... Kalau pnjang umo kita jmp lg kn airisy

Apa la umi ni kan airisy...love u sweetheart



Sue rs mcm2 harini dan sebahagiannye adalah yg di atas...cukup la kot. Nak men sudoku plak, esok br mkn ubat tido sy (mlm ni xmo tido lena)

-Umi sayang sgt Airisy taw-  =)


"Kau datang ketika duka dan bintang bercahya tunjukku ke jalan Syurga"
"Ku sunyi dalam gembira perit pedih tanggung derita, sungguh aku bukan wali yg suci dari hina dan benci"
"Terlalu lama aku mencuba terlalu banyak CINTA yg kudamba, tiada yg sempurna hanyalah fana"

-Emptiness-

Kan saya dah kata biar dulu...jgn buat apa2 lagi and dont check it urself or even go to the doctor!! But lately mslh tido sue become worst sampai ssh sgt nk lelap and everything serba tak kena specially kat perut. Wut hapen to me actually haa?? Lagi satu hal psl makan...lately sgt ssh nk abihkn makanan wlpun sikit, kl dulu selara makan ya ampun mcm anak gajah kot. Rs bersalah sgt bila tgk makanan tu terbuang/dibazirkn tp kl paksa sgt pon kang muntah balik sape ssh... Mmg sue tanak sgt gi klinik tp sue risau, abg pon risau. Sue blh tipu abg tp sue takley tipu diri sndiri sbb dr rumah i hope that harini bila jmp doc akan ada gud news tuk kami. Try to deny that feeling but i just can't coz it's like flying around my head/heart.

Lately sue mmg sgt tak jg makan tp perut ni taklah sakit teruk sgt. Have to admit mmg pedih tp kdg2 tak rs nk makan pown. 2-3 hari lepas bekfast, lunch n dinner in 1 plate. Satu sbb bz sgt keje kot [kalahkn PM kunun] so hidup sgt tak teratur balik da. It's not a gud reason of coz tp ntah la sue ni mmg payah! Mungkin sue sakit perut sbb gastrik, rs senak rs tak selesa specially malam2. This is 2nd week period delay kdg bila pikir im happy but sumtimes sgt sedey jugak.

Jumpa doc Manzlah biasalah soklan petama dia akan tanyer...awak byk sgt pikir nie!! "ntahla doc tp sy rs okie jer". Tension keje tu mmg la ade tp tak tau la nk ckp sbb rsnyer hidup ni cam biasa. As usual kita scan dulu la... "takde tanda2 mengandung pon! rahim sume cantik jer takde mslh". Dr Manzlah kata in 1 or 2 weeks time maybe akan period sbb ketebalan dinding rahim masih nipis n tak cukup tuk turun as darah dan most 'hurt' part is dia ckp maybe hormon awak start unstable semula. Deep inside "Ya Allah skali lagi KAU uji aku tp aku trima juga apa je yg baik utk kami ya Allah". Sedey gile time tuh abg plak masuk skali then sue rs cam tanak tgk muka abg. One part yg sue rs agak baik is bl nmpk 'cyst' n fabroid kecil dulu tu da tak ada... Alhamdulillah. Mmg tak sepatutnya sue gi klinik harini tp bnd dah jd. Sy sndiri yg mengundang kesedihan diri sndiri. Otw abg hantar sue gi opis td sue senyap jer....abg sbenarnya risau sbb dia nmpk sue sedey kot ek. Seboleh2 dia layan sue besembang sbb dia tau bila suhada senyap sure kepala dia pikir mcm2. Lawak yg abg buat td tak blh buat sue gelak pon but sue gelak jugak, takmo risaukn abg. Lepas ni kl nk jmp doc prefer to go by myself. Sue bgtau doc susah nk tido mlm then dia bg 'ubat tido'. Tak penah2 sumur hidup sy mkn ubat tido pasni nk rs cane feel mkn ubat tuh.

Perasaan skrg???? Sedih sgt rs nak nangis tp apa blh buat. Ini takdir-Nya so dgn rs syukur dan sabar sue terima... Kalaulah sue dgr kata abg tuk jgn check lg. aaiisshhh... Thinking of "sumthing" La Tahzan

"Ya Allah ambillah semua kesedihan ini walau hanya untuk beberapa ketika sbb suhada sgt penat skrg. She need to rest in peace (not rest forever of coz)" =(

Just now staring into my eyes i can see thousands of sadness inside this little heart, try to smile but it's still there. How can i lie, how to deny it coz your eyes "talk" even your mouth shut rite now. Silent.... but deep inside is sumthing like "war"

“Ya Allah aku serahkan urusan ini kepada Mu ya Allah”

Banyak sgt yg diharapkan, diinginkan manusia dlm hidup ini tapi bukan semua yg Allah makbulkan. Rasanya banyak yg nk sue luahkan tp tak terluahkan. Mungkin masa kita rasa sedey dan kecewa kita akan slalu tanye kenapa ini yg ditakdirkan utk aku?? Sue pun guna soalan yg sama walaupun dah tau itu sbenarnya tak baik dipersoalkan. Kadang2 kita tak perlukan jawapan utk semua soalan yg ada dlm hidup sbb kalau kita tahu jawapannya mungkin akan membuat kita lebih bersedih.

May 2011... cepat sgt masa berlalu dan masa ni mcm2 bnd yg trjd bulan lepas dah pon berubah. Ada yg menjadi lebih baik tak kurang juga yg lebih menyakitkn. Ada bnd yg rsnya lebih baik disimpan dalam hati daripada diluahkan. Harini masuk hari ke-8 dan sue masih juga mengharap. Salah ker?? Lately sy sgt suke bercakap sgn diri sndiri. Sue suke pegang perut sue dan ckp "kalo awak ada kat dlm membesarlah dgn sihat dan sempurna. saya akan jaga awak lebih dr nyawa sy sndiri". Klakar kot kan tp itulah yg jadi, mengharap bnd yg tak pasti dan tak nmpk dgn mata kasar. Takde sape2 pon tau termasuk abg sbb sue tanak dia mengharap. Kalo abg mengharap dan bnd tu tak jadi...tekanannya mst tuk diri sue sndiri dan pastinya sgt tak tertanggung. Sue lg rela tanggung sumenyer sndiri skrg coz itu lebih baik tuk semua org. Sue tau abg dah mula mengharap bila dia tanyer dan bila dia pegang perut sue. Setiap kali tu jugak sue tak bg dia ckp apa2. Sue akan ckp jgn fikir dan mengharap apa2.

Sumtimes sue rs dia ada....tapi skrg sue takde rasa apa2 abg! Takutnya ya Allah kalau ini sebenarnya satu lagi ujian buatku. Sue takan tanye kenapa sue dan kenapa bukan org lain sbb kalo jd pd sesape pon kesedihannya ttap sama. Sue rs sue kuat drpd org lain sbb tu Allah uji sue. Powerpuff girlz pun takan sanggup faced this thing. hehehee... Dlm hidup ni bkn tu je yg buat sue sedey sbenarnya tp itu je yg mmpu tuk diluahkan. Sue slalu ingat La Tahzan kalo sue sedey. Terlalu banyak yg sue blaja wlpun skejap dan kali ni pun sama. Apa pun yg Allah tentukan sue terima tp sue ada hak tuk menangis kalo apa yg sue harapkan tak menjadi. Menangis bukan sbb menyesal dgn apa yg jd tp sbb sue nk 'lepaskan' semua beban yg tak tertanggung nie...

"Aku takan tanya kenapa ini yg kau tentukan utk ku Ya Allah, sbb aku tahu Kau telah berikan apa yg terbaik buat aku dan org2 yg aku kasihi. Apa saja yg Kau takdirkan untuk kami aku redha, lapangkanlah hati kami untuk menerima segalanya dengan tenang dan penuh rasa syukur. Sesungguhnya tiada siapa mampu menghalang ketetapan Mu ya Allah"  =(

Dia mampu TERSENYUM dibalik KESEDIHANnya..
-Sayang cik sue sgt2 taw-

BBQ Kilang Besi @ PD

Sabtu, 07.05.2011 - Abg weekend duk umah tp sue kena kojo. Seperti sedia maklum bahawasanya suhada da jd damn "heartless" skrg. Keje pg sabtu taklah worst mane, working in peace with my beloved 'cik putih'. As usual weekend ni mmg takde geng nk kemana2 so lunch skip bebeh [sorry but seriously malas gilos nk kuar tgh2 panas sorg2] =(

Harini balik awal, siap2 pastu tggu abg balik dr KL sbb gi ziarah ann n family. Takziah tuk mek Ann atas kehilangan ayahanda tercinta pagi sabtu tu. Semoga rohnya ditempatkan dikalangan org2 yg soleh dan dirahmati Allah. Aminn~

Penat gak sbenarnya plus lately stamina sy sgt tidak kuat. Always feel tired and sleepy in fact tgh drive pon leh telelap for a second. Bila suh abg proceed dgn kwn2 dia without sy, beliau takmo plak. Katanya baik takyah gi la kalo camtu. What makes you happy will make me smile too so layan jer. Sampai PD dah kul 7pm. Ingatkn satu kilang besi rupe2nyer BBQ ni tuk bebudak melayu yg tak brape ramai kat Mega tuh. Mane yg dah kawen sume bwk pasangan masing2 (nasib baek abg tak gi sndiri kl tak of coz dia sedey plus kena bahan), ada yg bwk baby tapi ramai buaya2 bujang of coz. hahahah... Harini kaum wanita dimestikan utk tidak buat apa2. Prepare, cook and everything handled by men yaw!! Sgt seronok tgk dorang kecoh2 memanggang sampai tegolek jatuh ayam2 tu. Jadi ayam golek pasir. ahhahaha... Kerja kitorang yg wanita ni makan..makan n makan.

Dah lama tak tgk sunset tp smlm dpt tgk. Caannteeeeek sgt!!! Mlm tu dpt tgk byk bintang2 terang kat langit, ada bulan pastu sambil mkn tepi pantai dgr plak deruan ombak mmg superb kot! Kalo ikutkn sume2 smlm ada la dlm 30 org tp makanan ada yg tak abih specially mehun but grill things licin of coz. Abih je mkn sume pon da nak balik and this part best gak. Segala sampah masyarakat, kotor2 dan sume2lah abih licin dorang kemas. Tmpat yg tadi sgt2 berselerak dan bersepah2 dah jd bersih. Yg mengemas semua lelaki okie not ladies. Thumb up tuk u all guys specially organizer and en hilmy yg buat2 rajin smlm. kihkihkih... Before leaving dorang make sure everything clear and takde pape yg tertinggal kat blakang.

Sesi wajib yg paling best jgk ialah sesi bergambar. Sgt lucu time nih sbb mulut budak2 Mega ni sgt takde insurance. Terlalu ramai pak lawak yg suke buat org lain ketawa. Dlm gelak2 tu ada satu part yg cam kurang best... bila org nk bergurau tp pd sue cam agak kasar. Sue tak suke dgr ada org perli2 abg, wlpun abg senyum tp saya sakit hati yaw. Nasib baek saya dpt menahan marah. Ustaz kata org yg HEBAT adlh org yg dapat menahan diri drpd sifat marah.. so sy xprlukan harta berjuta, pangkat tggi2, darjat/kedudukan, tubuh yg sasa, muscle ketak2 utk jd HEBAT. cuma perlu blajar kawal kemarahan dan memaafkan org lain =)
Saya sabar kali ni but in future lom tau lg okie.

Apa2 pun sume enjoy that moment and next 2 years sure lg meriah sbb ada 2 ibu yg bakal melahirkn tak lama lg. Makin ramailah geng2 Mega nnt ek ;)

-Sayang sgt cik sue-  =)

Happy Labor Day 2011

Happy Labour Day suhada!! Hadiah hari pekerja tahun ni adalah kena masuk shift balik. Kalo ikut plan smpai hujung bulan 4 harituh sue ptt masuk normal hour tp 1 may dpt plak msg suh kerja shift. Mmg dah sue agak dah bnd ni akan jadi so dgn rasa tenang dan takde perasaan sue terima jer. Takmo pk banyak2 dah nnt sakit kepala, sue tak sihat, sue boleh jd mcm2. Ingatkan sue jer yg dpt "present" rupe2nyer ada org lain dpt jugak. "Hadiah" yg lg teruk drpd apa yg sume org fikirkan.

Smlm nmpk muka wan cam srabut jer pastu dia tot tet tot tet ngn emi. Bila tanyer just kata ada "bad news" jer. Then masa mkn baru dorang reveal. Ikhwan pon dpt "present" mengejut sbb beliau akan ditukarkan ke RNO. Sue tak paham sgt mula2 tp apa yg sue paham wan takan duduk cyber lg. Sedey gile kot sbb sue slalu kate emi n wan tu kembar, then alih2 dorang nk dipisahkan. Saya yg sedey sbb kalo mereka takde mst ssh kami nk ketawa. Dorang ni pasangan ideal...sorang loya burok, sorang suke wat 'highway' belengkaw. Cakaplah apa pon sure ade je jwpn dorang tuk reply.

Dalam ramai2 org kat cyber sue paling suke sembang, kuar mkn dgn kak zila, wan n emi. Mmg best gile kot!! Kak zila kalo da start gelak mmg tak ingat nk benti..adoooiii lawak tp skrg sedey. Lepas ni mgkin sgt susah atau takde da la kot time2 best cenggitu. Kalo sue kerja mlm sape nk teman makan lagi?? Sue cuma biasa dgn org2 INGN, wan n emi jer kalo nk kuar mkn. Kalo zura keje mlm takperlah at least sue ada kwn lagi, sue tak biasa dgn budak2 NGN tuh walaupun dorang baek. Sue mmg la ramah tp tak tawu lah. Nmpaknyer kena back to the old style...kul 6 lebih sue dah kena kuar tapau makanan tuk mlm pastu mkn dlm pantry sorang2. Kalo tak mst perut pedih pastu gastrik lg teruk. Dlm bag sue slalu ada cekelat standby takut2 nnt lapar and InsyaAllah everything will be fine. Nak mula dgn bnd baru mst susah sket kan tp saya akan tetap kuat  =)

Sue da takde prasaan nk kerja waktu cemana2 pon. Apa yg dia suruh sue layan jer selagi mampu. Yang penting sume org happy. Apa saja yg Allah bagi pada sue dan org2 yg sue sayang skrg, itulah yg sue anggap terbaik tuk kami. Banyak yg kita rancang tp mungkin sgt sedikit yg Allah makbulkan...tapi sue tetap bersyukur jugak

-Sayang cik sue sgt2-  ;)