Masa ain duk sibuk2 tanyer psl nak ke tidak amik barang2 yg kononnya dr kastam tu, banyak kali gak sue tanya nk verify btul ke that guy can be trusted!! Tapi sbb dia kenal budak tu so ain marah bl ditanya soklan same byk2 kali. Ooooohh my........baru sat2 ni dpt ckp ngn mak rupenyer budak tu is not a guy okie, it's a girl actually 2 girls!! Ya Allah....sure dia tak buat bnd2 ni sendiri punyer. Ain bgtau td mmg dia kenal that girl junior dia ms kat UiTM melaka tp skrg dah jd setan kot dak tuh. hihihhiiii...
Mula2 dgr shahrin kata ain dah deposit duit kat dak tuh...uuuiiiiiiiii sakit hati ni tak tekata kot!! Speechless gilos okie sbb sue tak tau langsung psl bank in duit wut so eve..langsung!! After taking very long deep breath dlm kereta td (xsmpat nk masuk rumah sbb sue mmg nk settle sume dlm keta jer snang takyah bising2) sue call mak mntak bwk betenang byk2. I knew my mak very well and for sure when she knows ain already bank in certain amount to dat 'bitch' (sorry but this is the only suitable word at this time...haha) mak akan "potpet88x". Words mula2 yg keluar dr mulut sue is "mak dgr je apa kak long nk ckp baik2 n tlg jgn bising2 sbb bnd dah jd" Then lepas cakap one by one td mak start to calm down even still marah sket2. After dat call shahrin tenangkn dia and talk few things, sue tau dia sedey but i also knew my bro n he wont say sumthing dat can make situation even worse so dia cuma mntak tlg cari dak tu smpai dapat. Wut i sure kl dia ada kat semenanjung skrg mmg tak tido dia cari budak tu mlm ni... Then tak abih kat situ sblm call shahrin sue call fuad jgk sbb dia je mmber polis yg blh bg pndapat dgn seyes when needed, yg lain byk main kot. Puas dgr prosess n prosedure tuk kes2 mcm ni n ad ckp mmg byk je kes2 berkaitan kastam nih, sue make few calls sblm blh keluar dr kereta. Aiiyyyyooo...sure org ingat bercinta kn dlm keta lame2.
One thing yg sue sgt beryukur mlm ni is bila sue pikir balik....sue try tuk tenangkn sume org. Tak tau mane dtg strength tu tp sue just tanak mak bebel2 kat ain sbb nnt dia akan makin tension. She need space tuk pikir and settle down slowly. Adatlah bila mak bebel (sue risau kl mak tak bebel...means mak tak sihat la kl mulutnye diam.hehhe) n ain or sape2 je takan suke kena pressure dlm situasi camtuh. Dlm kereta mcm2 otak ni pikir smpai tak cukup processor dah...mintak smoga Allah mudahkan semuanya, takde sape salah coz it's our own fault, bnd dah jd tak guna bising2, duit tu takan dpt balik of coz, nak dak tu masuk jail sgt2, kalau ada rezeki kami adalah nnt and if tak dpt blk duit tu anggap jela bukan rezeki kami. Maybe ada tanggungjwp/hutang2 yg sue lupa nk langsaikan sblm2 nih gaknyer. At least at this time masih ada baki duit2 dr total amount yg org bg tuh, at least masa ni ain masih selamat dan takde pape. When bad things happen to me 1st sue always think "sume bnd yg Allah jadikan bersebab" and setiap kali tulah Alhamdulillah sue akan dpt hikmahnya (but not all of coz ada yg still in question) Pahal sue positif sgt kot kan tp maybe sbb keadaan mendesak, sbb tanak sume org risau specially my bro yg dah lost 2k+ and my mak yg sgt suke berfikir dgn cara dia asalkn dia lega (takbley la mak cara mak tu sbb negara kt ada undang2..ehhehehe), duit sue pon of coz sue syg but alhamdulillah amountnye tak byk cam shahrin, duit of coz sayang la weyh and skrg bila 'senget' jap kepala ni mula la pikir "kalo duit byk tu leh beli sunglasses baru kot" but when 'senget' time dtg skrg bila otak dah 'normalize' sue pikir tu bukan rezeki jelah. Duit boley cari one taw, ade lah rezeki kat tmpat lain tu nnt.
Sue prasan lately sue blh blaja terima kesedihan yg dtg sbb terlalu byk bnd jd dlm hidup sue skrg. Setiap kali tu jgk sue akan ingat La-Tahzan...jgn bersedih dan bnd tu sgt ajaib. Simple word but very meaningful dan tiap2 kali tu jgk sue thanks to Allah sbb bg sue kenal Ikhwan. He's the one yg mula2 bg sue tau sume ni. Cam sue ckp kat entry yg lepas2 byk bnd sue petik dr ceramah Dr Asri...tersgt bermakna buat suhada, mmg sue xckp directly tp petikan2 dia share dr ayat2 Al-Quran/Hadith tu ya Allah sgt hebat. Kedua almost everytime ada masalah sue akan tringat "Managing Stress Course" yg TM buat last year, satu hari tp impaknya still ada so bgs la kn... Bermula dgn kesedihan sbb cahaya mata, kerja, jadual shift tak tentu arah, family dan mcm2 yg dtg satu2 sue hadap jugak...not alone coz it's always akan ada org yg dekat dgn kita bila diperlukan, ada Allah. Mmg pengalaman hidup akan mematangkan kita tu yg pasti.
Sue admit bukan semua dugaan yg dtg sue terima terus dgn hati terbuka but slowly bila ingat La-Tahzan dan ada moral support from ppl around itu sgt mmbantu sbenarnya. Mcm apa yg jd mlm ni....sue harap dapat bg pengajaran pd sue dan semua. Jadi tak perlu menyesal kot. Kdg2 sy pandai ckp jer tp sy still blajar tuk jd apa yg sepatutnya. Masih banyak kekurangan tp itu mmg hakikat manusia. Kali ni kita cuma hilang duit, akan dtg mungkin Allah akan uji lebih lg so tak perlu terlalu tertekan sbenarnya....yelah ckp tak semudah nk buat yek. May Allah bless and guide us in life. End for tonite, tired but still have to smile coz when i smile i hope others will smile as well...
"Cukuplah bagiku Ya ALLAH, sesungguhnya KAU lah sebaik-baik tempat diserahkan segala urusan"
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